Well, my president called me last night. He said he and the area
doctor think that I should go home for the surgery. He said he will call the Stake President and get me a flight. He told me he wants me to go home in this next week. And he also said after I get better to come back to Panama.
I don't know how to feel. I wanted so badly to have my surgery in the US, and now that I got it, I don't completely know if it's what I really want or what will be the
best. So I prayed about it and I'm gonna keep praying about it. But whenever I
pray I have a lot of peace so I know that whatever happens is what's best. Because it's not my plans, it's all the plan God has for me.- But you know how
much I hate not being able to control the future.
I decided this will be a huge test of my faith and
determination and trust. I'm gonna need to trust that the Lord can see how
badly I want to be in this mission and will reward me for staying determined and my faith. I
remembered a talk by Elder Bednar last night. It was talking about how we receive answers from God. One line is if we don't feel like we have an
answer, we need to act on our faith. That's been a huge thing for me. However long I am home, my mission will probably just get extended. Which would really work out great, because when you guys would
come to pick me up at the end, it would be in rainy season when it looks so much prettier than in the
dry season! But I guess that's just me looking at the bright side!
But while I'm thinking about it, I got to teach this Jamaican
guy yesterday. He only knows English. He is like the
perfect investigator! He told us how badly he wants
to change his life. He is an amazing guy and he was a pro soccer player in Jamaica! So yeah. Just wanted to throw that in there.
I got 2 pairs of shorts today, it
was a total of 3 bucks, one pair of swim trunks and one pair of like little
shorts. They are both pretty cool. But yeah, only 3 bucks for them both!
But I'm so glad you will make me soup when I recover! And I had a weird
experience. The other night we were walking, and I remembered when I got my
scooter, I was riding at like 4 in the afternoon, and it was like 98 degrees
or something like that. Well it felt the exact same here! I was like wow. 98 in Utah feels kinda chilly for Panama. So I came to the realization that Panama is
hotter than crap-. All the time.
That's funny that D Will came to Utah willingly! Kinda crazy! I remember when dad tried to race him. Dad's in a 4 cyl with 211 horsepower. And he
was up against a super car v8 with like 480 hp. Funny stuff those Audis. And
yeah, I know you didn't wanna know the hp of the cars, but it's my way of staying
sane. Sitting at home is killing me. Like I picture myself with my scooter,
taking off the air box and going for a ride. I'm probably gonna go riding every
single day, I wanna take full advantage of that thing while I still can!
That sucks about the office flooding. But at least they got it when it
was early, not floating furniture! Because you know how dad still
believes in paper work, which would have probably ruined all his paper work. But I guess I just like looking on the bright side!
I love that quote. It is good to remember that sometimes
we can be doing everything right but just because this is life we have
troubles, whether we want them or not. We just need to trust that everything
has a purpose.
But mom. The funny thing is you guys are more stressed about
what has been happening to me than I am! Like you guys are always worried about
me stressing. But if you don't remember, I handle stress pretty well. So there's
no need for you guys to worry about me. I can handle my stress! And for being in
such stress as some people call it, I've actually had a really good time with my mission! And I can kind of speak Spanish with dad. So that's a perk right now.
Well I gotta go. I gotta pack! But when I find out my itinerary, I'll email you and give you all the info, or maybe I'll be
able to call you. I don't know. But I love you!
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